Driving is teh weird

GAHHHHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Someone please dunk me into a pail of water.

My driving totally suck like rubbish today.

Gosh....why? I have entirely no clue.

So then, dad was gracious enough to allow me to drive the new myvi to pick mum up, I wanted to learn how to get to her office, in case dad has OT or something.

New as in, it just came a week back. It's about the last car they would be able to afford, so they figured they would be able to make the monthly payments before their retirement or so. The old car is after all about 10 year old. It barely has any value if resale so dad's decided to keep it. So when the time cames, brother would get the kancil and I would get his old car. Depends really, on our driving, since I still suck at parking and have gotten really used to the kancil, so it's gonna take ages to relearn everything with a larger sized car, and brother still needs more practice. Long long road ahead.

So, back to my terrible driving which gave dad and mum a heart attack. Like just now. We just got home.

First was my failure to break at some junction while turning out, almost grazing the large lorry. Earned myself a couple of warnings.

I have a tendency to overpanick if I get shouted at. The last time when I was still learning, uncle once lost his patience when he found out I had to resit the preliminary test, and resulted in my making loads of mistakes in almost everything I did that lesson. I.e., the tiang, mati engine....etcetc.

Can't blame my parents, I was in the wrong, but it just got worse....urgh..

Then it was me putting on the right signal when dad said keep on the left lane. Ahh....I'm still an idiot at differentiating my lefts and rights.

Next, was almost turning into the wrong lane......

Last. OMG....this lady almost walked out onto the road without checking for cars. Holy crap......I would have made a mistake that can never to forgiven.

So anyway, I'm so thankful to make it back home. How can a mere 45 minutes be so horrendously torturing...I have no idea. But I'm pretty sure my parents breathe a sigh of relief when we finally reached home, which I did as well. It would seem that my driving seems to sucky...and horrible today.

I'm so not driving anymore for today.

Is it because I'm not familiar with another vehicle, or because I got shouted at, or because I'm just teh jittery today?